lost that hope

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Kenangannya telah hilang
Sosoknya telah tergantikan
Sirna segala hal tentangnya

I thought there is no one know what i feel
I thought that just me in this deep pain
But that's all wrong
When i met him

Selengkung senyum tipis
Mempertegas raut kesedihan yang coba disembunyikannya
Menyamarkan keadaan yang berantakan
Membuatku sadar, aku tak sendirian

I was trying to talk with him
Trying to get closer with 'myself in different soul'
Trying to say you'll be happy
Trying to know what people see in me

Mengulurkan tangan
Mencoba mengenali satu sama lain
Memahami isi yang sama hancurnya
Sebentuk cover yang memperindahnya

"Hei" said that cute boy, with a big smile
I know that smile just a cover
"I know there is a trouble in us" said that boy
"Let's got a game, now you can see yourself in me, you can see how broken you really are, 'cause we're like reflection each other" i said that

"Aku gak pernah tau kenapa bisa separah ini rasanya" katanya
"Aku gak pernah mengira bahwa hancur itu adalah rasa yang paling sakit" kataku
"Kehilangan itu..." Kalimat itu baru saja diucapkan bersamaan
Kami tertawa kecil, saling menertawakan yang sama sama terluka

Lost, one word that be the reason behind this pain
I just lost my really bestfriend, no, he is not my bestfriend
I just lost the boy that i love
And that boy just lost his parents

"Kamu gak tau rasanya hidup sendirian" katanya
"Dan kamu gak tau rasanya kehilangan tanpa bisa mengucapkan selamat tinggal" kataku
"Kamu masih jauh lebih bahagia dariku" katanya
"Tapi setidaknya, kamu dan orang tuamu pernah sedekat hati dan jantung, sedangkan aku?" Kataku

"Why? Why you was loving him although you guys wasn't closer?" Said him
"Yep, just because i love him, doesn't mean i must so close with him right? Just because i love him, doesn't mean we must together right? Sometimes, reality are hurt and hard, but we must accept that, because we live in that" i said that
"But you don't know, how deep pain i feel. It's not about you love someone than you don't care have them or not. It's about, two people a.k.a my parents that i love so much, without gave some signs, then leave me alone. They got accident, now i lost everything" said him
"So what we would do for future?" I give him my really big smile, with eyes that stare at him for a long time

"Bergerak maju, apapun yang terjadi, waktu akan membawa kita kepada hal hal baru. Suka atau tidak, mau atau tidak, waktu akan tetap membawa kita kepada hal yang harus kita hadapi" katanya
"Aku tak pernah melihat diriku didalam orang lain" kataku
"Begitupun aku, aku tak pernah mengira ada orang yang juga serapuh aku" katanya
"Haruskah kita berbagi kesedihan untuk menghadapi masa depan?" Kataku

"No, we don't have to share this pain too much. We can see ourself in each other. And the point is, we get it right? If you've get it, now let's start. Let's move from this pain" said him
"I know the reason!" Said me
"What is that?" Said him
"If we still living on this pain, this pain will always attack us like we have no choice to get our future. To build the best future, we need happiness in it to make a rainbow, to make the sun lighting so bright, to make the rain feel so soft we it touch our skin, that's? Enough?" Said me

"Ya kamu tau jawabannya, sekarang mari bangkitlah dari kesedihan berkepanjangan" katanya
"Kita sudah melihat diri kita satu sama lain" kataku
"Dan bukankah terlihat hancur itu sangat menyedihkan? Jika kita terus begini..." Katanya
"Berapa banyak lagi orang yang akan mengasihani diri kita?" Kataku seraya tertawa

Than, he rise my hand on his hand
"It's the time. You'll be my really bestfriend and so i am, don't afraid, i wouldn't leaved you away, except God call me" said him
"You just make me down, and won't believing on someone anymore. But now i believe you. Yep, i will do the same. I will always beside you" said me
"We will make a new world, no worries, no scares, no sadness anymore. Live is a fantasy, then love make it beautiful to living in it"

Dan pada akhirnya, aku yang mengira hanya aku yang merasakan kehancuran
Aku yang mengira aku takkan pernah melihat matahari bangkit di dalam diriku
Aku yang tak bisa lagi mempercayai orang lain
Ternyata itu dipatahkan oleh lelaki manis ini

We're spending our life with living in a beautiful world that we've made together
With happiness, with smile, with love
We give love to each other
Because we know, life without love like earth without sun--dark

Inilah ceritaku dan lelaki itu
Sepenggal kisah yang tak pernah diprediksi
Tuhan mengirimkan seorang yang bernasib sama sepertiku--kehilangan
Untuk membantu kami saling melukiskan senyum pada masing masing hati.

--The End--
This story just a fiction, not reality, thanks.